a last wish of mine in 2010

soon will end this year ..

n this year had bring me a lot of memories ~

i will appreciate it ~

n now my wish is,

i wish my parents, my bro, my friends, my relatives ...

all have a healthy body ~

n they can get what they want ~

^^

n i will miss 1 of them ...

although this is the unhappy year for me ~

but be'coz of u all, i have learn a lot ~ thanks again ~

... lonely again ...

emo again ~
haiz ....
feel like wanna cry ...
who can lend me shoulder ?
T,T
i want hug hug n cry till enough ~

but there was nothing n nobody for me...
sigh ...

bicker with mum anew ~

sweat ...

woke up in the morning fetch mum to pasar...

after that head-on to nearby restaurant had a breakfast as usual...

chit-chat with my mum ~

while we chit-chat we started to bicker ...

we always bicker with the same little things...

sigh...

sorry ya mum ~

sometime i really doesn't mean it to u ~

yet, dun worry.

although we bicker, but u are always the best mother for us ...

bicker, already become one of the way we communicated ~ ^^

haha ~ finally i change my FB address ~

i wonder why, some of my friend fb id address were they's name ~

n i can't get it ~ n it just represented by some numbers ...

n now i can get it ~

yeah so happy ~ haha ~

this few days i was happy with it ~

i was enjoying my life like be4...

smile always ~ that was me ~

live happily ~

^^

you n me

for u ... i always though you were all of mine ~

the best of the best partner for me ~

so i did the best of the best for u ~

be4 that i thought u were the half in the rest of my life ~

but... i was wronged..

our life is different... unsuited...

just we had tried our best to make a change to suit it ~

and now i had decided to leave u ~

be'coz i know u can live better without me ~

see, now u have proof it ...

no matter what we have been through,

now just a memories for me n you..

we still friend ~

i'm sure you can look for the right person in right time...

be'coz you are changing a lot ... to be the better man for next~

tmr will be my last exam ~

yeah ~~ ^,^

tmr will be my last exam in my final ~

so happy leh ~

but it come with sadness too ~

happy is because of i was finish my studies ~

sad is because of i have to plan my way to get work ...

it mean, i have to take care myself n my family too ...

while i start to work ~

i will miss all my college-mates...

i like to be with ur guys ~

n thanks all of u to go through this road with me~

take care ya... n i will look for u all in 1 day i free ~

add oil la my friends ~

another moody morning for me

haiz...

really hate it ...

argue with mom again ~

i really doesn't mean that for u...

but is u, urself wanna make this argue ~

ok lor, fine come let's argue lor ....

sometime really so sad that i'm urs daughter...

be'coz of it ...

so u dun even listed wat i said...

hey, mom can u dun be like that...

this really make ppl hate u...

due to urs attitude ~

sorry .. for disturbing u ...

hello, my friends ...
galgal is be back ...
sorry for let u all worries...

i promise i will be happy always start from today onward...
really thanks all my friends when the moment i need a hand...
u all were stay in front of me to give me a hand ...
thanks again ...

recently i was easiest to get emo ...
sorry to whom i was emo to you...
sorry, pls forgive galgal ya ... ^^

still hv few hours i hv to sit for exam...
i was no confident of it ...
but thanks my friends who try to cheep me up...
it's work ... i try my best to finish the study n revision...

i promise i wll try my best while exam it ...

be'coz of u all just besides me always...
it make me feel like i'm not alone to face the world ...
no matter is my coll-mates, colleague, or my best friends...
i really did to like u all the most...

u all really teach me a lots when i was lost in the road of live...

oh ya, i hv to say sorry to 'him'
i was disturbing 'him' recently,
really thanks 'him' to bear my emo...
i promise i will try my best to stop msg or even call 'u'...

thank you to 'u'.
stay happy always this is wat i need right now...

*ps, to all segi-mates or my friends who hv sit for exam add oil ya ...
all the best ~!!! ^^

is me again ~

today have nothing special for me ~

just like another simple day ...

y'day i went to college again ...

to settle my *ptptn things ...

i was so bored n wish i can out with someone y'day ...

who also can, pls just take me out..

yet at the end, i just stay at home face to my pc ...

at night i was so moody...

without any reason ...

maybe i was too lonely so become moody...

i did to sms 'him' again ...

i have try my best to keep out of touch with 'him'

yet, i still wish i can hear 'his' voice once again be4 i bed...

but no, there was nothing for me n 'him'... just like stranger...

now i did to have a bad habits,

hard to fall into sleep at night...

n rolling on the bed unwilling to get up every morning...

maybe, is me unwilling to face the another day with loneliness again...

don't cross the line...

morning...
y'day i was sms with 'him' till we all fall into sleep..
before that i was went to movie with my friend...
he told me that i was thinking too much...
after i got home roll n roll on the bed...
maybe yes i was thinking too much ...
but really thanks my friend to treat me y'day n accompany me watch movie ...

actually i just try to sms 'him' y'day...
cos sometime 'he' won't reply me...
yet, y'day 'he' did...
we have chat a lot of through sms ...
i was told 'him' that a guy i still in love with n miss in my heart ...
i just don't know that do 'he' get what was i mean to 'him'?
i wish that 'he' won't ...
cos i just want to share with 'him' only ...
just like sharing a story... a real story...

do you know in my heart i have a line in between us...
i wish that i won't cross the line...
although i wish i would...
however, i can't cross the line in between us or else we not friend anymore ...
i don't want to spoil the friendship between you n me right now...
i wish i would keep it till the end...
cos, u already get what u want n live happily...
n i was not good enough for u anymore...

i really did sometime i wish i could turn the time back...
i don't want to leave u with the same silly answer again...
i will hold u tied n wont let u go...
this is what i think after 5 years we have apart...
yes, i was regret right now...
but i can't change it again...
n we have no next time n chance...

a plan ~

this few days i try to clam down myself ...

n think about my plan for the coming year...

i just took my result last fri...

it was what i had expected...

quite sad too ...

but i can't blame anyone, anythings....

just can blame on myself ...

what the stupid things that i did it on my exam ...

n now it's too late for me to blame it ...

so i just accept the fact...

i, went back to college everyday in this week...

due to, my resit paper...

really hate it ...

i don't know what are the admin department used on...

when i meet those people...

really pity my college that hire this kind of ppl to work for them ~

n now it was settle down ~

so, the 1st plan for me is study well for fa 4...

which the paper that i fail last sem ...

n all the best for my coming exam ...

2nd plan, i have to save some money after i work ~

be'coz i hv to work to earn more money for build up my house...

n i wish i would earn more money since i still young...

3rd plan, the coming next two yrs after i work either to buy a car or go outstation to work ...

i wish that i can do it according my plan ...

n it won't run out of control again ~

thus, this is a plan n an aim for me to continue my life without any partners ~

miss u ~

y'day went out with ann ...

i was enjoy the moment be with ann , my best fren..

although we seldom connected with each other ...

but our friendship is build up with heart ~

we had chat a lots ...

i wish that we can have the moment till the end..

yet, i call off...

coz my mom was waiting me to be back ...

i asked ann, should i add 'him' in my fb account ~

coz i really did to miss 'him' much ...

i was scared either to be reject the friend request by him,

or misunderstanding of his girl friend ... this is that i don't wish..

at the end, i was choose to add 'him' ...

while he approved it, i was happy ...

i think that was the happy day for me...

till, he comments to me n reply slow...

at the moment, my mood was turn down again...

can feel that my tears were rolling in my eyes ...

i wish i would turn the time back to that time ...

i wish i would be with you...

yet, it just a wish that i hope~

错过了，那再也回不到那时候～

有些人，事与物，一旦我们错过了再也回不到那个时候．．．

今天我和好友聊了很多．．．

在那一瞬间，我回想了很多．．．　

有些东西一旦做错了或错过了．．．

那即使你后悔了但也回不了头．．．

而你的后悔就只能成了回忆．．．

回忆；我不是别人．．．

但我的回忆都是美好的人，事与物．．．

所以我常懊恼我不能及时抓住．．．

现在的我只想抓住快乐～　

我... 迷失了自己..

现在的 .. 我 ..

已分不清楚对与错...

不知道我要的是什么...

突然我很害怕 ... 一个人...

不知道我要如何在走下去...

有时, 我很想大喊"重来" ...

我的人生很想重新在来... 倒带... 能吗?

有时的我只想有个人静静的呆在我的身旁...

在我需要时,递上关怀...

在我哭时,送上拥抱..

在我心情底潮时,哄我笑...

在我开心时,陪我一起大笑...

永远陪伴着我, 但不过问我要的是什么...

静静的伴着我...

但, 这个人还没有出现...

也许着是我自私的想法... 期待着有酱的一个人存在...

现在的我...很笨...

想要有一个人陪伴... 但不要恋爱 ...

想有个人关心... 但不是恋人...

渴望拥有恋情... 但不是现在 ..

却又担心着真的没人要...

矛盾的我...

我想要的人... 永远不稀罕我...

想要我的人... 我却不稀罕他...

现在的我渴望拥有爱情, 同时却也害怕爱情...

有一杀那的时间, 让我觉得爱情离我很远了...

就算我跑了一百里, 也追不回来了...

想拥有强悍外表的我,

是否很脆弱?!

突然想起'你'

那一天, 我和妈聊天有聊到了我的感情路.

妈说,女儿啊为什么你的感情路都走的那么的辛苦.

你都不觉得在浪费时间吗?

聊着聊着, 就想起了你.

我反复的问自己我的最爱会是谁呢.

原来是你.

应为我还是会偶尔想起你所为我做过的事.

也是唯一让我感动那些你所做过的东西的人.

我也知道你和她现在过的很好.

想起以前和你的点点滴滴, 我很开心.

我和你的相识是在巴士上.

那一天我和朋友你也和朋友一起搭乘着同一辆巴士.

当时的我们还在求学当中,那时的我手上捧了一大堆课本.

你说我帮你拿着吧,当时的你和朋友是坐着的而我和朋友是站在你们旁边.

我拒绝了你的好意,但你却不厌烦的一再而再询问我.

好笑的场景在那时出现了.

你说我帮你拿着吧,我的回答是不用了,你的朋友却说让他拿吧,我又说不用,

当时我的朋友也说就让他拿吧,我还是那一句不用了.

那时的我们就一再重复同样的话题好几遍.

可是我是很开心的.

后来的我很期望能和你在相遇.

我的愿望在当时是实现了.

我和你真的相遇了在某一天的夜市.

后来我们成了一对情侣,

你让我感动的是,你和你的朋友逛街你会想起我又买了一件衣服送给我.

你送给我的是我所喜爱的类型. 虽然那件衣服是廉价的,但我喜欢.

后来,你知道我的家人都在忙在没有家人的照顾下,

你关心了我的起居饮食. 偶尔你会带我出去吃东西, 偶尔你会给我惊喜

帮我打包食物送来给我吃. 虽然吃的不是山珍海味,但却让我觉得美味可口.

那时的我们只是个学生,没有能力去逛大的广场,但我却很喜欢与你逛夜市.

你让我最动心的是,你会买巧克力哄我就算我不在家但你还是把巧克力放在我家

让我能在第一时间看到我的最爱. 在那一瞬间的感动,就成为了我一辈子的回忆.

到了最后我们应误会分手了. 我很伤心, 我用了长达半年的时间去复原.

我们爱的很平凡,但着就是我所爱的. 我爱的并不是你的钱或你的样貌,而是你爱护我关心我的心.

希望你现在和以后都会幸福与美满.

10.10.10

10.10.10 so nice for the day we meet,

yet, it is a bad day for me,

i hate it,

all in bad,

bad luck,

bad mood,

bad things a lot,

H.A.T.E ~

haiz...

i did somethings,

it sound so serious,

coz, i was cut off a friendship with 1 of my fren.

still fren,

but not in this moment,

not connection for now,

till a day we meet up again.

i have create a new account for something.

there was the real of me,

i will voice anything there to share with u.

mountain climbing day ~ 16.09.2010

i was having a nice day in broga hill ~ 1st time feel that i am so near to the sun ~

i miss the moment that i saw the sunrise ~ thanks san san to call me go n fetch by peng peng ~

so scared during climbing ~ coz i was fall once during there ~

the feel was so scary ~ coz i can't step to anything there ~ feel like falling down ~

although both of my friends try to help me give me a hand to push me up~ but i have not confident on the moment ~ it seem like will be falling down on next second ~

at the end i was climb up ... i feel vy nice with climb on the peak ~ there were 4 peak ~

n we only climb till 3rd peak ~

the view was more nice compared each peak ~ the view was different in each peak, although the things were same ~

我此刻的心情

谢谢你的爱 歌手:李心洁

回头看过去

想念你的微笑和眼睛

你如此的天真

为爱情在努力

世界一直变

有一天我在梦中发现

也发现你的线

不在我的视线

那一天 我哭了一整夜

也知道 我回不了过去

谢谢你给我的爱

现在我才看清楚

彼此曾经受过伤

时间里烟消云散

在情多变的路上

也许我只是个小孩

把想要对你说的话

埋藏在心中最深的地方

answer for how it be ~

tired ...

for me i really getting tired ...

all i did, was shock everyone...

curious, on how it be ...

yet, things were pass ...

answer become not so important ...

for me ...

and you ...

my love was getting far and far away ...

from me ...

all i needs now ...

just a smile ...

gal gal here was change ...

a lot ...

cause time make me growth ...

without notice ...

someone are important for me ...

but the person are hiding me ...

sorry to bother you recently ...

thanks for accompany me ...

the person were the first person to knew it ...

all the time we be with ...

for me was happy...

although just a few hours we be while we chat ...