is me again ~

today have nothing special for me ~

just like another simple day ...

y'day i went to college again ...

to settle my *ptptn things ...

i was so bored n wish i can out with someone y'day ...

who also can, pls just take me out..

yet at the end, i just stay at home face to my pc ...

at night i was so moody...

without any reason ...

maybe i was too lonely so become moody...

i did to sms 'him' again ...

i have try my best to keep out of touch with 'him'

yet, i still wish i can hear 'his' voice once again be4 i bed...

but no, there was nothing for me n 'him'... just like stranger...

now i did to have a bad habits,

hard to fall into sleep at night...

n rolling on the bed unwilling to get up every morning...

maybe, is me unwilling to face the another day with loneliness again...

don't cross the line...

morning...
y'day i was sms with 'him' till we all fall into sleep..
before that i was went to movie with my friend...
he told me that i was thinking too much...
after i got home roll n roll on the bed...
maybe yes i was thinking too much ...
but really thanks my friend to treat me y'day n accompany me watch movie ...

actually i just try to sms 'him' y'day...
cos sometime 'he' won't reply me...
yet, y'day 'he' did...
we have chat a lot of through sms ...
i was told 'him' that a guy i still in love with n miss in my heart ...
i just don't know that do 'he' get what was i mean to 'him'?
i wish that 'he' won't ...
cos i just want to share with 'him' only ...
just like sharing a story... a real story...

do you know in my heart i have a line in between us...
i wish that i won't cross the line...
although i wish i would...
however, i can't cross the line in between us or else we not friend anymore ...
i don't want to spoil the friendship between you n me right now...
i wish i would keep it till the end...
cos, u already get what u want n live happily...
n i was not good enough for u anymore...

i really did sometime i wish i could turn the time back...
i don't want to leave u with the same silly answer again...
i will hold u tied n wont let u go...
this is what i think after 5 years we have apart...
yes, i was regret right now...
but i can't change it again...
n we have no next time n chance...

a plan ~

this few days i try to clam down myself ...

n think about my plan for the coming year...

i just took my result last fri...

it was what i had expected...

quite sad too ...

but i can't blame anyone, anythings....

just can blame on myself ...

what the stupid things that i did it on my exam ...

n now it's too late for me to blame it ...

so i just accept the fact...

i, went back to college everyday in this week...

due to, my resit paper...

really hate it ...

i don't know what are the admin department used on...

when i meet those people...

really pity my college that hire this kind of ppl to work for them ~

n now it was settle down ~

so, the 1st plan for me is study well for fa 4...

which the paper that i fail last sem ...

n all the best for my coming exam ...

2nd plan, i have to save some money after i work ~

be'coz i hv to work to earn more money for build up my house...

n i wish i would earn more money since i still young...

3rd plan, the coming next two yrs after i work either to buy a car or go outstation to work ...

i wish that i can do it according my plan ...

n it won't run out of control again ~

thus, this is a plan n an aim for me to continue my life without any partners ~

miss u ~

y'day went out with ann ...

i was enjoy the moment be with ann , my best fren..

although we seldom connected with each other ...

but our friendship is build up with heart ~

we had chat a lots ...

i wish that we can have the moment till the end..

yet, i call off...

coz my mom was waiting me to be back ...

i asked ann, should i add 'him' in my fb account ~

coz i really did to miss 'him' much ...

i was scared either to be reject the friend request by him,

or misunderstanding of his girl friend ... this is that i don't wish..

at the end, i was choose to add 'him' ...

while he approved it, i was happy ...

i think that was the happy day for me...

till, he comments to me n reply slow...

at the moment, my mood was turn down again...

can feel that my tears were rolling in my eyes ...

i wish i would turn the time back to that time ...

i wish i would be with you...

yet, it just a wish that i hope~

错过了，那再也回不到那时候～

有些人，事与物，一旦我们错过了再也回不到那个时候．．．

今天我和好友聊了很多．．．

在那一瞬间，我回想了很多．．．　

有些东西一旦做错了或错过了．．．

那即使你后悔了但也回不了头．．．

而你的后悔就只能成了回忆．．．

回忆；我不是别人．．．

但我的回忆都是美好的人，事与物．．．

所以我常懊恼我不能及时抓住．．．

现在的我只想抓住快乐～　

我... 迷失了自己..

现在的 .. 我 ..

已分不清楚对与错...

不知道我要的是什么...

突然我很害怕 ... 一个人...

不知道我要如何在走下去...

有时, 我很想大喊"重来" ...

我的人生很想重新在来... 倒带... 能吗?

有时的我只想有个人静静的呆在我的身旁...

在我需要时,递上关怀...

在我哭时,送上拥抱..

在我心情底潮时,哄我笑...

在我开心时,陪我一起大笑...

永远陪伴着我, 但不过问我要的是什么...

静静的伴着我...

但, 这个人还没有出现...

也许着是我自私的想法... 期待着有酱的一个人存在...

现在的我...很笨...

想要有一个人陪伴... 但不要恋爱 ...

想有个人关心... 但不是恋人...

渴望拥有恋情... 但不是现在 ..

却又担心着真的没人要...

矛盾的我...

我想要的人... 永远不稀罕我...

想要我的人... 我却不稀罕他...

现在的我渴望拥有爱情, 同时却也害怕爱情...

有一杀那的时间, 让我觉得爱情离我很远了...

就算我跑了一百里, 也追不回来了...

想拥有强悍外表的我,

是否很脆弱?!