这一刻

在这一刻我无言了 ...


有太多委屈藏在心中...
原来 ... 我不提,不说,不想 ...


并不代表我不痛 ... (心痛) ..
并不代表我不伤 ... (心伤) ..


只是, 我选择了隐藏 ...


如果, 某天有人无意间提起了 ...
伤口, 就像不小心的被撕裂了 ...


痛, 就会源源不绝的涌出 ...
泪, 就会自动默默流不停 ...


我的心对我说 ...


对于"家", 它累了 ...
对于"家", 它心淡了 ...

back to a cage ...

well, i was having a long leave with unpaid for a half month long ...
due to having a final year exam for my degree in year 2  ....
hence, i apply it to stay at home studies ...

time pass so fast,
it make me feel like i had done nothing,
and now, is time for me to back to work ...

but, it follow by an unwilling heart feeling to back to work ...

according by the original plan,
i should submit a resigned letter while i back ...

yet, i failed ...
because i can't get a job be4 i back to work ...
now, the job, the work place, seem like a cage to me ....
colleague, it seem like unfriendly member for me ...

i was envious of my friend's colleague...
because, their seem like living in a big family while their work...
unlike me ...

without a reason ...
my mood being down while i'm home ...
suddenly feel like i wish someone to stay beside me ...
supporting me, give me a big warm hug...
and said to me, u r not alone ...
i'm here to be your haven ...

am i too lonely ?

maybe the answer is yes ...

or maybe i just wishing someone is know me ...

because, me, i, myself also don't know who am i ...

F.A.T.E

since September 2010 we been apart ...

don't try to ask me how long it been ...

because i really forgot about the date ...

time, past so fast ...

i think it was about 1 and the half year we never meet ...

yup, we still fren i guess ...

will visit urs blog with seldom ...

well, saw urs blog just now ...

and i really notice that we been the same place in the same day.

haha ...

yet, in a little small hall ...

we also can't meet each other ...

it prove to us once again ...

we really hv no fate ...

which mean, we apart is the right choice for us ...

good for u and good for me too ...

coz, life without u is become more happy for me ^^

oops ... maybe,  i also forgot how u look like ... :p

well, end my words here ... night. ^^Y

upset ...

i was upset recently, no matter in which field ... 

i was disappointed with my family ... 

i was unhappy in my work field ... 

yet, i still have to pass through it ... 

no matter how strong with the unwillingness i have ... 

i will move out from the house 1 day ... 

i going leave my work place soon ... 

because i can't change others. 

thus, i have to make myself change ... 

wish to be better ... 

累~

很累 ...

我总是活在别人的眼光 ...

在意别人的言辞 ...

不想别人受到伤害 ...

所以常常自己受了苦就往心里吞 ...

就算气了,骂了,哭了 ...

最后伤得也是自己 ...

我能不能什么也别想 ...

就只为自己而活...

i was quite sad after i heard that ...

someone doesn't known me as well as he/she did...

yet, he/she saying that i was action to he/she....

as a fren, frankly said.

i was unappreciated u as my fren...

in a true frenship as we appreciated it, u won't said that i'm action to u.

while u know that i'm quite busy with my own life....

a true fren won't complain that i'm forgot u a little while, as i'm the most busy in recent.

a true fren who may sit at the corner silently while wait for me,

or even give me a hand while i needed u the most in time ...

yet, u fail to do so...

moreover, i really dun hv the kinda heart to did to u ...

if, i really need to get blame.

i think my family will be the 1st person to scold me ...

as i really out of time to accompany them ...

and it wasn't ur turn to did so...

therefore, u want to unfren with me.

it is ok, i dun mind.

be'coz i'm just will appreciated whom may truly fren with me ...

as i told u, u doesn't known me as well as i same to u...

thus, our frenship till here ...

the end...

lastly wishing u all the best in the rest of ur life...

i'm just a pass by person in a part of ur life...

same as u, that u were a little part of my life...

给... 曾经爱过的"你" ...

在这一年多的时间里, 发生了许许多多的事...

有开心的, 伤心的, 欢喜的, 与悲伤的...

突然发现岁月从不留人...

我过的很好很充实...

多了许许多多的欢笑在我的生命里出现...

当然, 这全都是当你从我的生命里消失时...

看到你开心, 那就好...

因为我的生命并没有因为失去你,

而活不下去...

反而因为失去你,

我才找到自我...

找寻那个爱笑的我...